Does anyone know what they are doing? (Confessions of a 20-something-year-old)

Should I be more outgoing? Outspoken? Outlandish?

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I don't know if I'm doing the right thing-

Is working as a Teaching Assistant, right? Probably not. I would much rather be leading my own research into Developmental Psychology, or, you know, have a sugar Daddy/Mommy to fund my travels and shopping. I didn't get my first job until my early twenties, and now I enjoy work (somewhat)- that sense of routine and time occupation.

I want to be spending every waking second making the most out of my twenties- but what does that look like? I don't have a partner, a stable career, financial security, or my own, paid-for home. It sure seems like everyone my age has at least two... have I failed?

I hope not.

I have to remind myself that not everyone's twenties will be identical and there is no 'ideal age' to complete a milestone. So, what if I'm a virgin, who can't drive? (TikTok reference). There is so much pressure in your twenties and yet it is the most changing and fleeting time, without education to provide that sense of 'I'm not yet a fully-functioning grown-up' comfort.

Fuck societal expectations.

I will have sex and get my licence, buy a home and find a career that makes me excited to get up in the morning. I am in no rush (words I replay over and over every morning). In the meantime, I will do things that bring me joy: read books, see Taylor Swift concerts, go clubbing with my friends, see art in galleries, and travel. I will control what I can and leave the rest to chance.

Who knows what will happen next?

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